So she is gone and a void is created in my life forever .Love the feeling of bieng loved while it lasted. She was a great girl only she was not in love with me and i respect that now .Chances are that i am never going to meet her again as i may never go to her city but then chances are that one day we might just bump in to each other in the strangest of places .I dont know what will i say to her then will i just move on or i would go back in to the past to see every thing i went through .
One thing is for sure i learnt my lesson . you should never plan things for the future that are still uncertain . Buying a house for the person who never said or commited any thing to you is not the sanest of ideas after all and as time will tell taking the deposit back was never a very good financial idea .In due course of time things would have looked up and she might ,just might hace come back in to my life . Hey whom i am kidding .the fact is that i will go old waiting for her and she will just not be there .
HOw ever its time to move on .All my stories have reflected on me and the life that i have led or might have led but my real life is a painful and sordid tale of deception and lonliness . Some thing is defintely wrong with my mind as they say i cant apprecialte the good things in life .
How i became from some one to no one in the long battle of life .Well i was never any one .Maybe i am getting old and sick of life the way it is going on.
They say it is a fault of my stars but then stars were never favourable and it has occured to me that until and unless i am unhappy i am not happy .i have been loving the idea of bieng sad and unhappy and loosing things is like winning. So rom now on its time to change i am going to appreciate what i got and plan out things differently .
make a difference to my world
Be a good boy and hey do i still keep the promises i made to my baby .i do not know for they all mean bieng sad lonely and unhappy in the long run .When you keep company of one thing called liquor you forget all that has happened to you in the otherwise sad world of yours.
Bonzo must have given birth and my baby has new company to keep for now .
that is life when some thing old dies or goes away there is always some thing new that arrives on the anvil .Polly is gone and priya has walked in to my life .Its not that i will ever love you less but then its her right to love me and be loved back for she is the girl who waited for me to get over you but then life is such.
Always loved you and the day you walked in to my life was the best day while the day you went is still not very far in my past . but life goes on .Work is killing nothing seems to intrest me any more or nothing seems to hold any values .
No achievement gives me satisfaction .No failure distresses me. its like a feeling of bieng a jombie alking in to the street not feeling the rain ,heat or any thing.
Love was a wonderful feeling and i know that i may never be able to solve my problems or love some body the way they do but some how i have lost the charm , the feeling to love .its like bieng alone is bliss .
The journey of life is just a beginning ...........