The highest unclimbed mountain in the world is Gangkhar Puensum, an almost 25,000-foot-tall beauty in Bhutan. It will remain free of human influence indefinitely, as local authorities are keen on preventing the environmental degradation that has occurred on popular peaks like Mt. Everest, where climbers have left lots of trash. What's the equivalent in your sphere, Sagittarius? The most prominent unconquered prize? The Grail that still remains elusive? The virgin treasure your quest has not yet won? According to my analysis, you now have the potential to make tangible progress toward that goal. Unlike the case with Gangkhar Puensum, there are no rules or laws preventing you.
This was supposed to be my horoscope for the week. Well unlike the Everest (yes, it’s on my to do list for sure), I sat down wondering what was that ever elusive goal I had been seeking in life. What is the Holy Grail? It definitely doesn’t represent the carpenter’s cup promising eternal life and yet in its search I had failed more than once in life, often ignoring the well sought after lessons life has to offer.
It could be only some form a test that has been laid out in front of me, that requires devotion and years of practise and yet my solution to it has been to create a world of alternate reality where everything, I ever want is manifested on my beck and command. I have lived in this world for the last six months and perhaps had lost touch with reality which offers harsh lessons, which I couldn’t ignore any more.
I had been reading a lot of things about how things can be manifested when you desire truly deeply and yet my only desire was remained unfulfilled that off course did not involve any miracles but just a little communication on some ones part. It’s strange how my Holy Grail had eluded me once more only to re-assess the situation and wonder, if it had all been ever worth it. Does commitment even meant anything anymore, when people are just selfish in nature.
Surly there is a lot to learn from the last three years, the lessons learnt, the need full done and yet one thing remains intact, my confidence and determination to take life heads on. This however does have a few changes. Over the last three years I learnt so well, never sacrifice anything for any one because in general people do not appreciate when you do something for them and in the end it is you who has to suffer.
It is a tough road ahead of me in life; off course my alternate reality helps me keep focused on my path only to change me a little more. Is it called maturity? I wonder if I could ever play my computer games for hours together forgetting about the world in general, where completing the next level used to be the most important task on hand. The Holy Grail achieved after two days of trial and error. The satisfaction of completing a level and moving on to the next one at four in the morning wondering what was in store for me next?
I could no longer sit in front of my gaming console and five minutes of shooting in the air left me wondering, why I was even trying to shoot when, I was not even aiming right. It was time to think once again, and then it dawned to me that I was a grown up. Life had finally made me bend down but had it broken me, I wondered?
What is the best way out of the mess? Yes after years of loitering around not taking life seriously, keeping others before me, I knew it was time to take out my things to do list. After all I remember completing most of the things to do before thirty list. Ok, so is it time to make things to do before forty list?
I sat down with a pen and paper and tried writing down. Did I really want to write everything down and make my life predictable for the next six odd years? Nah, that’s not me. I live in uncertainty and that is what gives me the adrenaline rush to look forward to the next day. The thrill of a jump is only when you do not know how far or how deep you are going to fall. So I folded the paper and chucked it in the bin. Where am I headed next?
Definitely not to repeat the old experiences, they are boring for me. What do I believe in? I believe that everything in my alternate reality will collide with the real world and merge together to make me a better human being. What is my aim in life? I have been searching for my aim since the last fifteen years and yet a settled life does not figure on it, no matter how hard I try to achieve it. I once told my friend, if you get married life would be coming home having a cup of tea, talking to your wife, watching television, have food and sleep. I somehow over the years longed for it, tried so hard for it, and yet to complete the equation you need someone who is guided by a free will, something I forgot about. Your wish may come true because you pray hard and finally one day God has mercy on you and manifests it, but even God can’t control free will. It is something that God gave us to make our decisions and when we try to control, we lose.
The road trip had been something; I had been planning for ages. It’s not inspired by any movies; it does not have a definite travel route. I plan to travel, the road where ever it takes me, because it’s a road trip, which more importantly than not is not the physical trip from point A to point B but a trip in to my mind, that keeps churning out complex equations without any answers.
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