Karma (vs) Destiny

Karma is a strong word. In the Hindu mythology Karma defines what a human being does for a living or in general to spend his life. Often it is said that karma is what a man or woman choose and one has to live with the consequences of his or her karma throughout life. I did believe in this philosophy but then there is a greater thing than karma and it is called destiny. Destiny has got no relation to karma and often our karma’s become what is foretold in our destiny. It does not matter how an interview went. If the job is in your destiny, you are going to say the right things, if not all the qualifications in the world may not give you that most sought after dream job.
I do know the sceptics would try to assure me that out destiny is in our own hands and yet I would like to assure them, that our karmas become according to what destiny suggests. How would then I explain the déjà vu moments I have that come true with time. I am pretty sure it is our destiny that is guiding our karmas in such a way that events like those come true. Yes, they are fore warnings and yet do we take action to change any of those events. No we do not.
We would more often than not just feel that it was a bad dream only until we are in the right place and the right time wondering if we could have done something to change the whole situation. In the last three years, I had plenty of déjà vu and more often than not I chose to ignore them not only because of the unfamiliar surroundings but also for a fact that, I did not believe that they were going to come true and yet time and again my destiny has played its cruel game of making me think and act in a peculiar fashion only for those dreams to come true.
It is a complex process that our intuition is one thing that is a fore bearer of events. We often tend to think positively and yet in time we tend to forget the events that we had seen. It’s strange but true that these events can occur from one day in to the future to a few months and in my case it took me a year to understand what my dream was trying to tell me when I was so much in love. It told me clearly of everything and yet I tried to change it only to fall flat on my face. Our intuition, it still believes that I am not going to go back and yet everything seems to be pointing in one direction.
Do I believe in my karmas or my destiny, it is a good question because karmas just tend to become the way my destiny wants them. How do I change it? I can’t. The mere thought process is such that no matter how much you try it is going to go in sync with your destiny. What is my destiny? I do not know but I do know one thing that my karmas will become such that my destiny is going to be the guide to a better future. A future that we all hope we have and yet is something that eludes us.
Why would I then see buying myself a nice black dial tag watch or wearing a light brown suit crying out loud “you only want to marry me because I got millions now?” Karma, destiny, fate or just a dream that arose from my subconscious because of my obsession with money. A déjà vu. Who knows only tomorrow, a few months or maybe a few years from now on, can hold the answer, when I say it.

The M square

Of all the tribes of the zodiac, Sagittarius is most skilled at not trying too hard. That isn't to say that you're lazy or lax. What I mean is that when it's time for you to up the ante and push toward your goal with more force and determination, you know how to cultivate a sense of spaciousness. You've got an innate knack for maintaining at least a touch of cool while immersed in the heat of the struggle. Even when the going gets tough, you can find oases of rejuvenating ease.
It is always rather strange how a human mind does not want to accept the mere facts and clings to a hope. A hope that acts a guiding beacon at times and yet becomes the biggest nemesis of life. It makes you forgive and when you know you are being cheated upon, you tend to believe otherwise. Life comes in technicolour my friend, sometimes good and sometimes ugly. What has happened in the last year was summed in one nice long paragraph, how I had faltered, how I was the culprit and how I was the devil. It did open my eyes to the fact that, never ever get in to someone else’s problem, because it’s just not worth it.. You do not need someone else’s pain to screw up your life, because when you are in pain no one ever will come forward and say, “Sid, here I am, let me help you.”
I should be feeling angry, but does anger solve anything. The only thing it ever does is to break that bond with your spiritual self. The person you are, the person you are trying to become. I do know that when you love someone, you tend to protect the relation but when that same person hits you in the balls, you tend to double up. Then off course the theory of full red circle comes in to play. What you do unto others will eventually come back to you. What you did to Priyanka came back and hit me hard in the place where it hurts more.
Well, somehow everything seems to fall in to place now. The pieces of the puzzle are finally making sense. It was a good decision not to meet her, because while the ultimate revenge was being planned to finally put me in to an asylum, I did stop dead in my tracks and I knew what was happening, only too naïve to believe it being true. What is sad is to take revenge, someone can actually convince themselves of what is right and what is wrong, when they know it themselves where they stand eventually. Sad but true and still, I can just stand on the edge of the cliff, extend my hand. To grab it is the only thing someone has to do and if they decide to jump, well, all you can hope is they meet a quick demise.
It is rather strange that today is the day when I move on in life. Living a dream and not able to fulfil it could have its disadvantages. First of them however is, you need to set a goal in life. What do I love the most? The analysis is rather difficult but then the choice however rather clear. Looking back, what excites me the most? What caused the rift between all my relations. It was money. So it is money that excites me. Nothing wrong with it and then it’s me. So the two things I love the most is me , myself and money . The “M” square.
Yeah all right, I was taken for a ride. So what? Do I care? Come to think of it practically, I don’t . Come to think of it emotionally , I do. “Hello, not again.” the question remains would I extend my hand to that person ever again in life. Kind of difficult to answer. Just like in the game of chess we have to make moves in life and yet in life, we do not know which pawns are black and which are white.
I have made my moves and since they turned out to be black, I do not regret it, because I know the next move is going to be white. It is elusive; Lot of time and effort wasted but goal finally has become clear. The moves are clear. What gives me most happiness is clear. It is good to have a single track mind and while it was engaged in the pursuit of pain ever, it is time to pursue happiness. Happiness in the pursuit of “M” square.
Today as I write this, I do not know, if I am ever going to see her or talk to her ever again but if the world is a small place, we will bang in to each other in the strangest of places, least expected. The only difference will however be “M” square. No one can falter me off the goal till I decide to do so and I really don’t care how long and how difficult the road ahead might be. My single track mind is set on the objective and the objective is my own personal wellbeing. No one can or will ever play with my mind again.
The truth is however all you had to say the three magic words “I moved on” and in all the world no one had to suffer, no bad feelings and every one would have been happy.